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This is my friend, Dylan. We rode bikes and got ice cream together!
So, I wore my really awesome water buffalo horn hanging jewelry on Thursday, thinking I would go home before going to my boyfriend’s house on Saturday. I was mistaken. So I said to myself, Oh, it’s fine, I’ll just take my horn jewelry out while I sleep, since I don’t want to break it, much less in my ear. So I did just that. The next morning I popped them back in with little complaint. That’s awesome, I said.
And then things got hairy.
I spent the whole weekend at my boyfriend’s house, and I still thought my ears would do okay naked. After all, I’ve been sleeping without plugs for a couple of weeks now and wake up every morning to no complaints when I try to put my plugs back in.
But today, I got home and tried to put my plugs in. Nope. I thought, oh, they probably just need to be tapered in. Nope, still nothing. They didn’t even want to slide a centimeter onto the 2g taper. I was getting distressed… and moreso by the minute. I have spent… so. much. time. On my ears. Its not uncommon for me to attend to them for forty minutes a day. I do everything right… I take such good care of them. And what’s more, I was approaching my beginnings of taping up to 0g in the coming months. I was going to get to 00g and relax there for a long time.
And now, only to realize that my ears aren’t even a 6g? Not. Even. A 6g?? They might be an 8g. How is that even fucking POSSIBLE?! I’m so upset right now I could cry. I worked so hard, I spent so much time and money, I had so much done. I feel like I should have known better than to leave my plugs out that long, but I thought they were at least 75% healed, at least.
I’m just so upset, I don’t even know what to do with myself… I don’t know if I want to put the time into this anymore. Because I spent about seven months doing this, doing everything right, and now what? Just to go back to the fucking beginning? And it’ll be another seven months before I’m even close to 0g again? I’m so sad… 
I just don’t know what to do.
(Source: glassfetus)
